R&R (Rant & Rave)

The above picture characterizes how I feel. Still waking up, even though its 8:13am to be exact. I have to learn how to get the proper amount of rest that I know I need for my overall healty, wholeness, voice, and body. In any event these morning shifts are something else, but it will get better as I implement more awareness and greater stewardship of my time.

I woke up this morning and I was pondering a couple of nonsensical things and all of that jazz; so I get to work this morning, kind of dragging mind you, and I log onto my Facebook account. I've been off of facebook for about close to two weeks...just taking a break from the whole social network thing...[and yet i've got THIS. Ironic, I know...] but I happened to log on today to get some workout instructions i'd recieved way back and I happened across the status of one of my fb friends which had to do with the history of the Word of Yah and the fact that the Genesis account was misconstrued or something...it was a hodgepodge of knowledge..and I saw that his comments numbered well past 100; so I got interested and began to read.

I'm totally vexed man! I read and saw nothing but the pursuit of intellect! Its disheartning...I mean, I can speak from experience because I'm a scholar...a dilettante in scholastic matters. I love history and I love finding out and understanding why something occured or why something is the way it is etc. I enjoy finding out why a certain thing is accepted as opposed to something else etc. But lately as i've begun to grow in the Will and Word of Yah...i'm' beginning to see the vanity of pursuing knowledge... man, i'm all for enriching and expanding ones mental capacity but lately what i've seen has begun to truly sicken me. Our thirstiness for knowledge and more knowledge has become outrageous. It can be likened to how we are a people of excess and debauchery right here in the good old US of A. We take everything for granted...and that taking for granted has caused us to become prideful and drunk off of our own self-importance that we now look down our nose at the other nations of this globe; as though nothing would ever assail or come against us. I expect that principle in the individuals under the sway and oppression of this world-system because they have an excuse; unchecked carnality as a result of no submission or subjection to the sovereignty of Yah; and the fact that their minds and eyes are blinded by the evil genius of this realm...so my fight is not with the 'un-saved,' the individual that is not a citizen of the Kingdom of Light; but my vexation boils to bleeding over when the very 'citizens' of said Kingdom exhibit and manifest the same cravings, longings, actions of the run-of-the-mill masses! Smh...

not meaning to rant and rave, then again, I can...its my blog! LOL but the same position America is in is what I saw with the peeps i've associated with on fb. Their thirst for intellect has pulled some of them into the place of now trying to plumb the depths of Yah's mind...instead of getting to know Him and submitting/subjecting themselves to His will and word...they now try to plumb the depths of His mind and many will never admit to this, but they are actually doing it WITHOUT Him! Its scary that the word speaks of 'sense and reason WITHOUT Ruach HaKodesh (Holy Spirit)' and refers to men doing things and operating from their 'darkened' mentalities etc and I've been seeing this man. All this false enlightenment and revelation...not that is false...but its hellish enlightenment and demonic revelations...and its designed to pull many into a thirst and quest for more and more knowledge, while you forgo life! I find it so funny that Adam and Chavah ended up partaking of the substance of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, but never even reached for the substance of the Tree of Life! And this is the route man has been on ever since; constantly eating, constantly seeking and running after knowledge (sans Yahweh) and we've missed LIFE!  I looked at my friends on facebook and found myself asking the same question a few wise ones would ask concerning me at one time; "What is the point of all this knowledge?" "What is what you now know, what you've found and are now presenting going to achieve?" "What is the real changing relevance of what you've discovered and now know?" 

Solomon, as Kohelet, in the book of Kohelet (Ecclesiastes) says basically in 1:18 "for in much wisdom is grief; the more knowledge, the more suffering...' I looked at these people, i'm beginning to look more at myself in this respect; after all, its easier to look at everyone else and notice genuine problems they have or what seems to be problems according to YOUR perspective and so now i'm looking, first, at me and at those around me; not so much in derisive judgement concerning them, but more in extreme curiosity asking both me and them; "What am I doing with what I know?" "Has what I know made an enrichment to my quality of life? Will it make an enrichment to the quality of my life?" "Is it truly relevant?" these are some of the questions i'm just NOW beginning to ask. Wish I had this ten years ago...but we all have a laid out race to run and i'm running mine. Its vastly interesting to me...

Not too long ago, Yah, in all my confusion and busyiness, began to show me something in regards to what will happen within these next three years. I was reading something about the Ancient of Days, Atik Yomim in aramaic, and I came across this phrase that said 'Atik Yomin givers ancient wisdom for present day living.' I read the passage of scripture right below that phrase which was in 1 Corinthians 1 and 2, I believe, and it began to speak about not speaking or operating with the frail wisdom, intellect, philosophy of man etc. but utilizing the wisdom of Yah...and Yah begun to show me the literality of 1 Corinthians 1:19 coming to pass in the next three years: 'I will destroy the wisdom of the wise and frustrate the intelligence of the intelligent.' and Yah began to show me how the next three years would reveal mankind's knowledge, wisdom, reason etc. coming to the end of itself and many would find themselves falling into greater confusing and even traversing the places of insanity and that it would ONLY take and require the wisdom, and not just any old wisdom this world has seen and operated in, but the ANCIENT wisdom of Yah Atik Yomim, Yah the Ancient of Days...the one father of years and time itself...the overseer of chronos and eternity. Our navigation in the days ahead will only be sound and stable through operating in, living in, possessing, and stewarding His ancient wisdom otherwise you simply wont make it! Thats when I began being assisted to wake up by Ruach HaKodesh to slow down...quit relying on 'wisdom' that consists of mere rhetoric, so as to rob the Messiah's execution-stake of its power, according to Rav Sha'ul in 1 Corinthians 1:17.

I look at us man and i'm like, 'Yo what have we been doing Yah...we've been esteeming SELF, esteeming and priding ourselves on OUR mind and OUR mentality and exploits, and we've done it ALL without Him! Thats unsettling to me in such a deep way. Its downright scary to me to even concieve the possibility of living without Him and His guidance adn interaction!

One of my prayers is that I began to grasp the serious weightiness of the times and the NOW time I occupy in addition to the serious weightiness of being connected to Him as my source of enrichment and subtraction in every area of existence!

~bloodspeaks