*The 'Penis Vignettes' were to be a collection of short vignettes depicting the lives of men that deal with things not always addressed or dealt with. The secret frustrations and imprisonments that litter the majority of our lives...those dark, moth-ridden things inhabiting the closets of our lives....unfortunately the project didn't materialize but here are some short stories from what would have been.
I couldn't ask for more...in fact what I had was much, much more than I had ever anticipated.
But in the back of my mind I was aware that what I had and everything that came with this; was causing me such grief. The thing was I had managed to fall in love with my best friend.
'A Problem?' some might say and some might ask; many might even go far as to say, 'how could that be a problem?' Yeah, I was well aware of the old saying that 'friends make the best lovers' and in the beginning it was truly a beautiful union. I had been accquainted with this person for close to ten years and each year I grew closer and closer. Each year my feelings and emotions went well beyond just friendship and normal appreciation. uess what i'm doing? I'm sitting in my room staring out of my large window enjoying the beauty of the rain falling. Yeap my day is composed of silence , an overcast sky and rain; that can easily be confused with the black rain falling inside my heart.I press my face against the window pain and instead of seeing the rain drenched streets, umbrellas and the like...I see sunny days and days spent in each other's company.I remember taking the metro to the Village movie theatre, or Almond's Bar. I'm nostalgic of walks in the square of Dillon's park; even trips to the more fashionable, artsy part of the city; always together, always enjoying each other more and more. During those golden days, I never allowed myself to worry about any thing. Nothing was more important than being around or with you...I mean, when you breathed , I would truly live; when you would blink your eyes I would truly see. Then, I couldn't even begin to put a lable to what I was feeling...Nah, I couldn't put a name to it. Imagine my surprise when I finally realized what it was. Can you empathize with how I felt when I woke up mad stupidly love-drunk? Love-drunk off of you, my bestfriend and companion.Nah, you probably wouldn't be able to understand if I brought this too you.
I'm sitting here now with a big a** smile on my face.
Man....
Oh! the lightning and crash of thunder brings me back to a reality known as the present. All of this is alright I suppose; falling in love with you and all that jazz, but there is just one catch to this whole situation...
...how does a man explain that he's fallen completely in love with another man?
©2005
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