Today...

...man today has been a day. All day I've had to keep myself occupied at work so as not to dwell on the incessant burnings and cravings of uncontrolled nature. Its a mess but i'm proud to say i'm enduring. Not in my own might of course but i'm making progress. I spent the better part of my shift  on youtube looking up clips of my favorite opera singers and throwing all these appetites toward something productive like re-stoking the flames of my passion for classical/operatic music. Today has been a rather slow day. The first time its been like that. Today actually mirrors the morning shift when people don't really show up. There were the occasional check outs and walk ins but the majority of my time was spent soaking up opera!

     I WANT TO SING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO SING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO SING!!!!!!!!!!!!

There...got that out of my system! :-)

Talked to my mother who informed me my brother was going hard to Lisa Page Brook's 'I Am' from her album "Strong." Mom said he was going hard on a specific part. I just chuckled. She said he might come with her to Craftsman 101 on Saturday night. I told her that was cool. That will be a blessing. Just let him flow in the power of Ruach haKodesh; don't push him or anything like that, let him be pulled in by Yahweh and you'll see a magnificent transformation.

     I've got to get a car! lol holding out until dad gets his car so I can tear the road up...going to be reading through the book so I can go get that last piece of documentation that solidifies my adultness. lol

I'n some ways I am excited about what this year will bring. Not sure of all the pressures and weights that will come with advaancement and opportunities but I'm thrilled at the prospect of whats comeing. I can only say that in my stomach I know that this will be my year...the year where I will emerge in the fullness of the man Yah has ordained and created me to be. In less than 91/2 months I will be entering through the doorway of my thirties and I believe that this critical entrance will present a completely different Orrin than anyone thats known me will be able to handle and I will be the Orrin that I never thought or imagined i'd be. Its like mother said...i'll wake up to the fullness of stature and wisdom and ability and anointing! In the fullness of HIS power! I'm excited. I've been sitting here for the last two hours converting youtube clips into mp3's for downloading on cd of Maureen Forrester, contralto. Man, I sat and watched clips of these great singing actresses and my heart just swelled with so much desire and passion to DO that! I want to sing Mahler, Schubert, Wolf, Ruckert, Charlotte, Dido, Orlofsky, Handel, Scarletti, Italian, Hebrew, Aramaic, Berg, Weil, Broadway, Gershwin...and the list goes on...I want to perform...want to train this sometimes contralto, sometimes mezzo-soprano voice of mine and just sing with freedom and abandon and sweep people up in my joy of just singing. I want to sing fearlessly on stage before people. I want to vocalize the above pieces and compositions but I want to put voice to compositions of Abba's heart...I want to run into a wonderful set of composers that compose classical/sacred songs of prophecy and the thoughts and heart-thoughts of Yahweh's heart and mind...songs that transcend what we have here on earth but songs that have the raw geburah (power) to eradicate or rebuild, utterly shift or replace mind sets, heart-thoughts, lives etc. I just want to sing...AND I WILL TOO!

Oh, mark my words ORRIN T. PREJEAN...you will sing...you will perform the above pieces with a spectacular, Ruach touched voice but you will sing the Shir ha Yahweh (song of Yahweh) like never before in the earth...you will sing and sing and sing and sing with magnificence and opulence, beauty passion and power...you will sing and sing and sing with  timelessness...you will sing ancient songs of passion and antiquitous songs of His mind-scape and heart-thoughts...you put in song and melody every word that He wishes to convey to this earth...you WILL sing!

...you will sing.

well..i'm off now...off to finish some work...perhaps compose a poetic piece IF the mood hits...but i'll leave to Mahler's 'Der Abschied' (the Farewell) by Maureen Forrester, Contralto!

~Bloodspeaks