So....

I believe the above image about sums up how I feel RIGHT NOW! lol

Just a quick re-cap:

     Mother calls early to let me know her brand new 2011 Kia Sorrento is totaled and completly burned to a crisp! My brother [may] have been drunk. He ended up running all the way home from the scene of the accident only to have the cops come pick him up from her house; I believe, and take him to jail.

What a morning right??? Well...

suffice to say, Mom calls back to let me know that it was NOT his fault, but the blame can be laid at the doorstep of a woman who was plumb drunk, HOWEVER, there are plans to lay real good into Nathan's derriere for the little fact of  him taking mom's car while she was sleeping without her knowledge to Port Arthur...and thats crazy because He has a brand new Tahoe...so one wonders why in the heck would he have used her car in the first place...unless her car blocked his in...anyways...i'm rambling and digressing. He's home now and I was talking to Pastor and he was like

'Let him sit in that guilt for a while. No one needs to say anything derrogatory toward him...just let him stew in it...and its going to hit him hard in about a day or two.'

I agree...mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn the power of disobedience...I immediately was like:

"Ruach...oh my goodness...forgive me! I really have to yield to you...I can't afford not to!"

and thats a sentiment that I have to RUUUUUUUUUUU NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN with like faster than the wind! Whewww! Soooo mom's gonna keep me posted on whats happening with details about the accident plus what she will and can do concerning insurance for her car. She said in it all she has HIS shalom guarding her heart. He provided her with that car and He can provide her with another one. I was like kudos to you mom...my mom seems so unshakable in life situations...I couldn't say anything when she first told me...and I felt weird because i'm always accustomed to having a response for something...but now I'm having to learn that its OK! Its REALLY REALLY REALLY ok if I don't have a reply, words of wisdom or knowledge or some type of verbiage to offer concerning matters; and its not that I don't want to offer anything or a lack of concern/display of selfishness, its more of a wisdom thing...and recognizig those moments when words fail...or fail to come forth! Its OK! Really, it is!

Now i'm at work and boyyyyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeee i'm a bit tired. Pastor was like

"Son, i'm so sorry you didnt get the chance to rest...i'll have the bed prepared for you when you get home..."

thanks pops...cause i'm a bit tired. Now i'm here on the morning shift with a co-worker who is MORE dramatic than I am, yes I'm serious...BUT she's a sweetheart in her quirkiness. Apparently she made a boo boo on a resident's bill and is trying to fix it so i'm waiting to utilize the computer that has all the music on it. Today I plan to settle down and get into this word on this Shabbat...see what the reading is about then go over my notes about the 'Definition of the Heart,' The Witness ministered on and 'Flesh and Craft' from Apostle Patterson...so i've got some good good nourishment to swallow. Then tonight is MasterBuilders Port Arthur Craftsman 101 live session and i'm stoked to see what enrichments or new things The Witness brings from the King's treasury! In any event...I may be back on this joint to post a haiku/sonku or something...something. LOL

Shabbat Shalom...

~Bloodspeaks