today was spent mostly taking care of my things at the job...then time to myself to surf Amazon.com and buy up a lot of materials that will re-stoke the fires of my passion to sing. I so enjoy what I do. I love it. I have to make a correction to my page. I actually got a response back from my voice teacher, Dr. Carol Lines...she told me to look through all the Mezzo-Soprano repertoire...in her estimation; my voice is more Mezzo than Contralto...I actually found a cool picture that pretty much describes me...
Mezzo Soprano: Alto doday, Soprano tomorrow...
I'm so looking forward to really reprising this gift...not certain where it will take me but I know I must sing...its in my make up...I've got to release this voice and all of its colors and timbres. So music is my life! LOL
Spoke with my mother today...had an interesting conversation.
I know that the majority of the world does not believe or accept Yeshua or the spirit realm and supernatural happenings and thats cool...in the end...all will indeed be brought to the truth of what really is; but we often don't look and consider the things that are passed down within familiy lines. We never really take the time to consider what is passed down to us; not only gift wise, but also curse wise. There are some things that come from both sides of our families...both of our parents and my mother began to speak about some things she's never spoken out loud.
My mother is recovering from complications of diabetes with neuropathy that robbed her of her ability to walk a few years ago and now she's learning to walk all over again. Its progressing well and she recently came into a large large allotment of money that really upgraded her quality of life. she was telling me how much she's dealing with verbal abuse from my younger brother who is taking care of her...and in that situation its a mutual arrangement. He used to be to be a street urchin LOL one sellin street 'pharmacuticals' and what not and just living a life not in line with the law or health but he recently wanted to get his life right since he's a father of three children, twin boys and one beautiful baby girl, and he ended up moving in with my mom along with my sister and her daugther so its cool but mom says now he has a bad tendency to abuse her with the words of his mouth and that pissed me off. Not too long ago he took my mothers 2011 Kia Sorrento around 5am in the morning and ended up getting in bad car accident and getting out of the car in time before it caught on fire and buned to a crisp...he wasn't bad off except for his left side being hurt. So she's dealing with that...and then she tells me something she's never spoken out loud dealing with pedophilia, molestation and porn and i'm floored for the moment but I gain my footing enough to see this thing for what it is. Are we seriously aware of what lies in our family lines...are we aware of the gifts and curses that swim in our blood streams? Do we take that to heart? Is that a reality? I began to evaluate some things. We do indeed inherit things from our ancestors through our blood/family lines and all of it is NOT admirable. Well...ive been interrupted from my flow of writing far too many times...i'm about to call it quits right now!
~bloodspeaks
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